i don't mean because will & grace and that's 70 show are now off the air..... i mean simple things you have always done and now have to really concentrate to accomplish them again.......i can only say these last 6 weeks..or should i say these last 7 months have been some of the greatest highs and lowest lows i have ever felt...i always maintained i would share with all of you those two days following my surgery...i now feel i need to write about it and if i already told you this stuff in person sorry about repeating myself......i awoke in a recovery room with sue and my full time nurse at my side.. when i looked about the room i had perfect vision...( i wasn't wearing my glasses or contacts ....perfect vision for about ten seconds....i even thought for a moment i went in for lazer eye surgery my mistake......funny thought at that time.....anyhow when i awoke again in my room which thanks to the families fund was a private room...( which i was so thankful for) then the fun started.....i never was a morphine kind of guy and that drug was playing tricks on my mind...i was not in a lot of pain...but having 30 staples..5 tubes..and a partridge in a pear tree coming out of me i guess i needed something for the pain...but it was a very dark time.....but again thanks to the families fund we were able to keep a 24 hr vigil on me and my aides and nurses were there when i needed them......there were these boots that were placed on my legs that inflated every three minutes to keep the blood flowing in my legs....they were so uncomfortable i wanted to rip them off ...but my aide calmly said..in his accent ...mr cheefo they are there for a reason and we must keep them on....well i woke form a strange morphine induced dream and the entire room was filled with spider webs....my aide passed me a drink and i asked him what was going on with the spider webs...and he kindly said...me cheefo there is nothing going on as i wiped the spider webs from my arms and drifted back to a place i have never been before and will never want to go again.........part 2 tomorrow of my DARKEST HOURS........
THANKS FOR LETTING ME GET THIS DOWN ON PAPER.......TOM...."DRUG FREE"...CHEFFO.....ps. weight went down to 142..... eat like a pig but i quess not enough...ice cream malts here i come.....hey hey hey fat albert help me out
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ok tom do you really think your blog world wants to know about your darkests hours....well i hope so because thats what there gonna get for the next few days anyway....heeeheehe...i love comenting to my self......tom
you can only appreciate the dark, if you've lived in the light... you can only appreciate the light, if you've spent time in the dark...
i want to read part 2, TC. It is good for you to get it out, get in on paper, and share the feelings and let us know what you went through- we want to know every detail- it's important = you are important. some of us have had some dark hours, too, and it always helps to hear a brother speak from the heart, especially a strong one like yours.
love ya, man.
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