iN MY DARKEST HOURS.. part 2

still thurs night/friday morm.... after the dream and visual bizarreness....i was awakened at 4 am for my vital signs....still reeling from the drugs was not able to sleep again and just wished i were somewhere else...and for the first time i questioned why i went through with all of this ....imagine that self doubt the day after..a lot of good that kind of thinking does ya....anyhow my aide named Helmet (yep just like what you put on your head)... at 5am said it's time for your bath.....well i was kind of ripe ya know and i figured what the heck..you only live once and he proceeded to wash me down for over 1/2 hour and it was really a very calming experience and for that short period of time i was relaxed and not in the freakin out mode.......well sunrise came quickly....visitors were streaming in but i was on the outside looking in .....knowing there were friends and family there but just trying to get through each minute as best as i could......i did manage to stand up and walk a little but again only remember vaguely doing it both days......sometime durin the day i found a chair in the room that folded out into a small bed and i figured out a way to push my feet against the wooden part to get comfortable....however i pushed to hard and broke the darn thing... i did tell a nurse about it but they have enough on their mind(on my second stay in the hospital my broken chair was in the hall with a big broken sign on it ) i laughed each time i walked past it..and told all who would listen that it was me who broke it with my massive leg strength.....any how my doctor came in and i begged him to pull me off the morhine and the morphine drip that it was driving me out of this world....he agreed to change my pain medicine and i felt that it helped immediately to improve my state of mind.....because on friday night even though it was as uncomfortable as thurday i did not have those weird dreams and spider webs all over me.....i did notice that an office building across the street that of the 56 windows i counted during the day only one light was on...i was trying to figure out what was going on in that office......that took up at least 10 minutes of my time....10 minutes closer to daylight and my sponge bath with Helmet....( ok with 5 tubes coming out of you you take what you can get ya know,...........the rest is history....two days of hell for another 30 years on the planet......priceless

welcome back vansman...i hope your wife is feeling better...thanks for the call the other day
mets beat yanks...yeahhhhhh baby.......
went to visit my co-workers today...it was good to see everyone...wore me out i still am not ready to go back......although i am chomping at the bit.......

tom......heading around third .....cheffo