THESE WALLS

one should only expierence the feeling and power that goes on behind the walls of Slone Kettering.....it is a place of compassion and care .....where every life is as important as the next....my progress has been good and things are waking up inside me again.....the funny thing is i really don't mind to much being back in the hospital even thogh the taste of freedom is still on my lips (that's the only thing on my lips i've tasted in days).....been getting my walking in 1-1 1/2 hours a day round and round the halls with my ipod...singing along to songs sometimes..even getting smiles from the amazing nurses that walk the halls with such a good vibe coming out of them it should be bottled and sold on the open market....they mentioned solane on tv during the yankee game yesterday i think one of torontos coaches was here and derek jeter sent a bat over..i pumped up my fist proud to be a memember of this exclusive club....to my family -friends-and total strangers- i am alive and well living behind these walls......and living is the opertive word....tom

MINOR SET BACK

I guess you could say if i do not blOg for a few days thars a trouble a brewing.....yesterday (thurs) woke up feeling pretty crappy...dehydrated.....lightheaded...rushed to local hospital for fluids and a boast.....well a blockage was discovered in my intestine and the wheels started turning to get me out of huntington hospital and back to my home base ....sloane kettering...after hours of which i spent most of the time in a freaking hallway i was finaal taken to NYC in my first ambelance ride as a patient..one hour in the back on a gurney.....got into my room at the stroke of midnight..they tried to put a tube down my nose nto my stomach but it would not go...that was unpleasant at best....it is around 10 am and i and on fluids and being monitored..who knows how long i will be stayng in room 535b but i will tell you all this i am in good spirts...good hands...and about as hungry as a human canm be ...but as my chart says..NO LIQUIDS....NO SOLIDS..STORY OF MY LIFE THESE DAYS
TOMMY " TUBES ARE BACK IN " CHEFFO

ONE FOR THE BOOKS

i almost did not tell you all this but is to bizzare not to...ok here i was lead into a room to have them look inside my new state of the art system....while i was told to remove everything below the waist i was assured it was ok to leave my shirts on...well as he poured the contrast dye into my bladder it was leaking out of the tubes and i was getting pretty wet...not saying much and hoping the picture had good news i kinda blew it off.....well like i said all went well and he removed tube from where no tube should ever be and said it's ok to get dressed (after lying in wet for 15 minutes....well the problem was i had no other shirts and only a fleece type jacket..to compound the problem my you know what was leaking and i had to put a pad on ...sort of like a diaper...oh not sort of exactly like a diaper...well they left the room and i grabb

ed the first thing i could to wrap around me..a bedsheet..ok get the picture.....me 15 pounds lighter....diaper...bedsheet...i swear i looked like GHANDI..i did get a laugh out of it....and under my sweat pants and fleece type jacket was how i was driven home.....(i think sue knew i was just a lttle pissed...but still i had to laugh......do the math
one hour drive to the city tolls and gas....$326.75 ( price of gas is high)
contrast dye into NEO $2,500
getting tube pulled early....far-out-
GETTING TO DRESS UP AS GHANDI AND IT'S NOT EVEN HOLLOWEEN......PRICELESS
all's well that ends well...tom"feed me"cheffo
candy..have a blast
susan k ,missy and crew.....stay dry
cartwright..lauries braclet is on the way

AND THEN THERE WAS ONE

hey all. thanks for the great comments yesterday they lifted my spirits...eating adult food again yeah....and had the tude removed from the place i was praying for ahead of time..what a relief...all i have left in me is a safety valve into NEO (MY NEW BLADDER) that is in my belly.....all systems are working and i am training NEO to do the right thing....injected a dye into me and stitches are holding well inside...man o man...i am free at last ..thank god almighty i am free at last....well don't want to get ahead of myself and i still have to set my alarm every 2-3 hours to empty bladder but hey what else am i doing

cartwright i have bracelets..i will send ya a special oneto all my friends that went to the festival....enjoy the music...have a beer or three on me.....put it on my tab
tommy"speedo-neo-chemosabi- almost tubeless" cheffo

TUESDAY WITH TOMMY

HI MY FRIENDS......HAD A GOOD DAY TUESDAY...STOMACH FEELING BETTER AND ALL SYSTEMS ARE WORKING NOW (GET IT?)....STILL PRETTY WEAK AND EXPECT THAT TO GET BETTER AS THE DAYS MOVE FOWARD....HAVE AN IMPORTANT FOLLOWUP MEETING WITH DR RUSSO TUES AT 3:30 TO REVOVE THE TUBE INTO MY BELLY (yeah) THAT FEEDS INTO THE BLADDER AND THEY INJECT A DYE INTO neo TO SEE IF HE HAS ANY LEAKS...WATCHING TV AND LISTENING TO MUSIC AND READING TO PASS THE TIME BUT GOING STIR CRAZY...SO PLEASE CALL ME AFTER WEDNESDAY ANT TIME AFTER 10 TO CHAT 631-673-6406...HOME 3 CAN'T PROMISE A RIVETING CONVERSATION BUT I COULD TELL YOU WHATS HAPPENING ON THE YOUNG AND RESTLESS (lol)......THE E-MAILS AND COMMENT ARE PRICELESS AND ADNY I DID SEE SOPRANOS..ALL ABOUT FOOD EPISODE.....JUST MY LUCK I CAN'T EAT ANY OF IT YET...TAKE NOTHING FOR GRANTED....EVEN GOING TO THE BATHROOM IS A GIFT ...TRUST ME ON THAT ONE..LOVE YA

GOOD LUCK MICHELE,AYELET AND STEVE IN ISRAEL.....KNOCK EM DEAD

TOM

WEEKEND UPDATE

HI ALL...minor set back saturday and sunday,,,,,food still does not agree up my system and thank god for gerbers ( yep resorted to baby food).....wild ..it turns out i will be going through this for a little while until my system comes back being in shock......other than that....glad to start recovery... 75 degrees thurs and friday...cold and rainy weekend..like it when i could walk outside....need to walk one hour a day....goes quite fast..thanks to ipod and all my music.....families hold me up now........the two darkest days after surgery you were with me.....man that was hairy...will tell ya more as soon as i can relive it......sorry kaminsky you washed out in tourney......


i will blog again
cant sit for to long

tom

CHRISTMAS IN APRIL

not only did some of my greatest friends come to visit..... my show brothers you always hear about .... stewart (joe blow tees),adam and jeremy ( be as you are)drove from maryland/dc area with unbelievable food......and laughs ...lonnie (marcia we went for a walk) came buy and is always a great friend to hang with.....and alan and donna .....two of the nicest people on the planet....gave me so many fun gifts to keep me busy.....one of which is a minature water cooler that hold eight glases and is in my room right now...saving sue some steps in bringing me gifts ..... hey ...i am still getting gifts....and i am cancer free...only in america....tom

feeling twice as good as yesterday..and only half as good as tomorrow

good luck loose lucy's fishing team....susan your blog address is www.looselucyfishingteam.blogspot.com....( not .net) check out the site it's cool updated tommorow

HOME ON THE RANGE

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WHERE THE DEER AND THE BLADDERS WILL PLAY...WHERE SELDOM IS HEARD.....AH YOU KNOW THE REST..IMAGE IS JUST IN CASE YOU WANTED TO SEE WHERE I SPENT THE LAST WEEK....WHEW..WE FREAKIN DID IT...ALL OF YOU WERE WITH ME EVERY STEP OF THE 7 DAYS......TOUGHEST TWO DAYS (PHYSICALLY) OF MY LIFE THURS AND FRIDAY WERE.......BUT I HAVE TO TELL YOU ALL I AM ON THE ROAD BACK.......THANK-YOU ----THANK-YOU...LOTS OF HOSPITAL STORIES TO TELL.....DUE TIME ..IN DUE TIME.....TONIGHT .....I SLEEP......

TOM

TURN THE PAGE

<< I AM GOING HOME....TWO DAYS AHEAD OF SCHEDULE I HAVE BEEN GETTING FREASH AIR ON THIS BEAUTIFUL PATIO ON THE ......they have a beautiful outdoor patio on the FLOOR patients and it was good to go ouT Side........
phase 2 is in full swing and i will be sent home with a tube in my belly that feeds into the bladder and one out the only exit they could think of...( should i draw you a map)?.....my unrine will flow out two side of the NEO- bladder NOT A BLADDER ANYMORE IT WILL BE REFERRED TO BY ITS NEW NAME NEO FROM NOW ON for 4 weeks......with me claning and flushing it out.......part of the recovery ...part of phase 3 i guess.....HEALING AND TURNING THE PAGE............
REMEMBER TO TOUCH A TREE TODAY IT HAS TO FEEL SO WONDERFUIL....THE CONCRETE PATIO AGAINST MY HAND TODAY WAS THE MOST WONDERFUL FEELING I HAVE SENSED ALL DAY....EACH TOUCH OF EACH OBJECT WILL TAKE ON A NEW MEANING ON THIS ROAD TO THE CURE.......TOM....STIR CRAZY...CHEFFO
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TOMATO SOUP FOR THE SOUL

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HEY FROm TOM AGAIN....A LITTLE WOOZY FROM THIS SHITTY SOUP I HAD......BUT IT TASTED GOING DOWN...I GUESS YOU KNOW WHERE I WAS GOING WITH THIS................ANY WAY THE CLOCK IS TICKING AND I CANNoT WAIT TO BLOG FROM HOME,,,,,,THE CARDS ....CALLS.....LOVE.....FLOWERS.....ALL OF YOU ARE WITH ME EVERY SECOND ...EVERY MINUTE,,,,EVERY IV....DRESSING CHANGE.....EVERY EVERY THING.......am now and sleep came in bits and pieces......more in bits than in pieces...almost impossible to get a good nights sleep in here...always waking up to give vitals and stuff....seems like the clock starts here at 6 am and you fog through the day......healing well cannt wait the share war stories....lOVE TO ALL AT NAOT/YALEET FOR THEiR KIND WORDS AND TESTOMONIES... i hope you all know i miss you as much as u miss me.......CHRIS CHEFFO'S BIRTHDAY TODAY.....MY BOY IS 22.......AWESOME SON.....AWESOME HUMAN......AWESOME BROTHER.....AWESOME BOYFRIEND... AWESOME DRUMMER ( ONLY PLAYING 4 MONTHS AND READY TO ROCK)...............WHAT MORE CAN I ASK FOR TOM "STRONG ARM " CHEFFO

Message from Tom today!

HI....FROM TOM....... CUTTING INTO BLOG...LIVE FROM NY SLOANE KETTERING ........SITTING HERE WITH TEARS IN MY EYES READING ALL THIS...................I LOVE YOU ALL. AND AM DOING GREAT.........KEEP THE LOVE FLOWING.................TOM

PS- Tom will be going home on Wednesday!!! YEAH!!!!

GET WELL SOON, WE MISS YOU!

HI....FROM TOM....... CUTTING INTO BLOG...LIVE FROM NY SLOANE KETTERING ........SITTING HERE WITH TEARS IN MY EYES READING ALL THIS...................I LOVE YOU ALL. AND AM DOING GREAT.........KEEP THE LOVE FLOWING.................TOM


GET WELL SOON, WE MISS YOU!

Casey just called and was right next to Tom and Tom wanted me to TELL EVERYONE OUT THERE THAT HE SAYS HELLO!
The photo is everyone at Yaleet sending their warm wishes to Tom. Not sure what happen to my smile, I think I was more concerned with the young girl taking the photo. She was walking by selling Easter Candy so I stopped her and said to her if you take a photo I will buy candy from you (very Fair trade), such a Tom move right! So we showed her how to use the camera and then Steve and I bought candy from her. LOL
We were talking this morning in the Sales Department about how we are missing a piece of the puzzle "Tom". Just not the same without ya buddy! We were quoting some of Tom's lines this morning like "land your planes people", "One Ring Only People"! WE MISS THEM! Or his random dancing in the office! We have so much fun with ya Tom. Can't wait until that morning you walk back thru the front door and say "I am Back people", that will be a GREAT day and we are looking forward to it! Listed below are two more quotes from Kent Doobrow (The Doobrow's are great people) and Bruce Grosser (who we love talking to everyday).


Kent- I always go back to the first time I met Tom. It was Surf Expo Sept 1993 and we immediately connected. It was obvious he had been given an opportunity that afforded him the ability to share his magic and continue to expand his horizons. His previous life experiences, dedication, love of family and friends, sincerity, selflessness, and work ethic rarely seen these days offered those in his path (as well as anyone in 10 square miles of him) the ability to meet that one special person that can positively impact you for life! Nothing has changed since then. The life lessons I have and continue to learn from my association with Tom make me a better person. Over the years, I have seen ONLY positive comments and actions from Tom. He leads by example. We are all better because of him!!! The music never stops..........Peace

Bruce- I went to the theater to see a movie with Tom in NYC during a FFANY show. Bruce sat next to Tom. Tom said " don't you know the every - other - seat rule ?" Guys don't sit next to each other in a movie theater !" Now I know better.

Tom should be back on the BLOG this weekend! YEAH

New Update as 1:30 Thursday- see at the end

Let the Healing Begin!
Surgery went very well and as planned! Got the call last night around 10:00. WHAT A GREAT PHONE CALL THAT WAS!!!!!!! The doctors told Susan that everything looked good and no visable signs of cancer. As soon as I hear more this morning, I will update you all again! Listed below are more kind words about Tom from Susan,Candy & Jess Macdowell!

Susan wrote- the one person in the world that showed me what customer service could be, and should be, I thought I knew it all, the way he interacts with people, from friends to strangers, is genuine, honest, and personal-it captures all who is in his path, if only for a moment, or for a lifetime-he changes the way people feel about the moment they are in, about who they are, and how he made them feel like a better person!

Candy Wrote- You can't help but think of Tom and smile. He has the most amazing outlook on life. He can always find the humor during the rough times which seems to help put people at ease. Reading the blogs helps to keep me grounded, it reminds me of what is important in life. It is easy to lose focus, but the blogs keep it real, not only with Tom as the leader, but with the comments of the wonderful people he surrounds himself with. You can't help but to love Tom and his family. He touches peoples lives so effortlessly, as does the whole Cheffo family. I feel blessed that he is in my life.

Jess Wrote- He walks into a room cooler then the Fonz no matter what the situation, and he's not faking it.

New Update as of 1:30 today- TOM JUST CALLED!!!! YEAH!!! He was a little out of it, which is to be expected of course. We were so happy to hear his voice here at Yaleet. He said, he was doing ok and just wanted to say HI! He is so amazing! We love him! More updates later!

New Update as of 10 pm Wednesday night! See Bottom!

Live well, Laugh often, & Love with all of your heart!

This is Tom's motto! What a great motto! This is why we love him! Hello everyone, it's "Michele". Today is Tom's surgery at 12:45, which is about a 6 hour surgery. As soon as I hear something either this evening or earlier today, I will post it ASAP on the blog!
Tom- when you read this we are all thinking about you today and we love ya guy!
For the next few days a few people have sent me quotes and paragraphs about Tom and I would love to post one or two a day. Tom will love to read them!!! The first one I would like to post is from Rachel at Yaleet. I love this one!

Tom is the type of man that people aspire to be like and parents teach their children to be like. He is a kind and generous man with a heart of gold. He will happily give the shirt off his back or the shoes on his feet to someone who is in need. He is an inspiration to all that come in contact with him. After a conversation with Tom Cheffo you may feel a bit confused, due to the fact that you have just discussed the current political happenings, which Dead song sounds the best live as well as which tradeshow setup works best for WSA, all in one conversation, but you will always be inspired to be a better person. Tom will always make you feel as though every second counts, every word spoken matters and that life is what you make of it. Everyone who meets him is changed for the better in some small way. You will walk away from him with an attitude of "it can be done" no matter what the situation.....he is a motivator. Tom is the person that you would want in the elevator with you if it gets stuck….hopefully he will have his guitar.


2:35 Update Just spoke with Tom, there has been a delay in his Surgery and it is now scheduled for 3:00. He will call if there are any further delays. He will not be getting out until around 9 or 10 tonight. I will post as soon as I hear.

4:45 Update- Just spoke with Susan Cheffo and Tom is in surgery as of 4:00. Should be out around 10:00 or 11:00. As soon as I hear more news I will update again ASAP!

GREAT NEWS!
Tom is out of surgery, surgery went excellent and as planned, so far so good!
He will be in recovery tonight and tomorrow, Susan will see him in an hour, but reports are positive!
More info in the A.M. and will post as it arrives!
Everyone get some rest and we will re-group Thursday!
Thanks and good night!

TILL THE MORNING COMES

ok this is officially my last blog for a few days.....so heres what i have to say.........nothing.......that's right i am saying nothing...you guys have said it all....your phone calls...e-mails...gifts.....poems...prayers and promises (sorry.... john denver song snuck in)...your amazing strength to support my family in such a way that could never be equaled ........as i continue to say nothing about how today i was talking about my surgery as if it were happening to someone else .....but i figured it had to be me in this situation.....there had to be a reason why i have been surrounded by the likes of you.......my network of family and friends ........ co-workers....business associates is second to none.......it has to be me tomorrow because i would not want this to happen to any of you whom i love so dear......so raise your glass tonight.......take a look at the moon tonight ...it would be an honor if everyone looked up at 1 :00 pm tommorow and thank the earth for keeping us alive and bringing all of us together...you all have spent so much energy on my journey...relax tomorrow...i am in good hands..............WE ARE LOCKED AND LOADED TO BEAT THIS THING....ALL FOR ONE ....ONE FOR ALL...... to sue, casey, chris, maggie, cocoa mo, stormy and reese ( can't forget frida fish)...it has be a heck of a ride....thanks for steering the ship........
Dad & TC....
SURGERY 12:45 WEDNESDAY..........MAY BE OUT LATE IN DAY MICHELE WILL UPDATE BLOG...HER WORK pHONE # 516-465-6268

T MINUS 36 HOURS...TILL BLAST-OFF

well my friends the time has come...i will be in the hands of a gifted surgeon
( if he screws up do i still have to pay him ?).....one small set back today....i spiked a fever (SUNDAY NIGHT FEVER) up to 101.5.......plus i am fasting and craving a cheese-burger like you would not believe..MED RARE...NO PICKLE....SWISS CHEESS...SIDE OF FRIES...CLOW SLAW..........dr said take two tylenols and call me in the morning...really thats what he said......funny guy.......i love him....i love you guys....i love the crack in the sidewalk these days......what can i say you have made it up until this point a journey to remember........one i will tell my grandkids about.......i plan on one more blog before wedesday and michele will take over.....be kind to her.....she tells me everything.........thanks for the phone calls..... gifts....love....hope...peace.....cards.....music....prayers....yeah yeah all that is good but not one of you snuck me in a chese burger today........and to think i get to fast all over again tomorrow......call me at home around three tomorrow and you will see exactly how ornery i can be...............THESE ARE THE GOOD OLD DAYS..( on one of chris from nomatic state of mind shirts).....I LOVE YA.........TOM

FASTING...........all systems go

well it looks like phase II is in full swing starting monday i go into a full fast mode until surgery on wednesday.....no solid foods......here's a list of things i could put into my body.....apple juice/gingerale/seltzer/tea/coffee(no milk)/fruit ices/broth/gatorade and gelatin.,.......on top of this i have to drink magnesium citrate and fleet phospho....might as well strap a toilet to my ass because thats where i will be for two days....stocking up the bathroom with magazines, dvd movies, salad bar (oh forgot can't have salad).......monday and tuesday should be a riot around here......sue made the jello already and i think is clearing out during the day......don't blame her.......anyhow been eating like crazy....Hoarding food in me like a camel hordes water..........6 pancakes already today....big meal planned for tonight celebrating my son chris's birthday ( it's next week but i am a little busy then).......passover...easter....i guess i will be eating for those holidays today also.....if i keep this up i will look like fat bastard in austin powers....oh behave............anyway all systems go.....Michele from work will be ghost writing for a while....( don't believe what ever she says about me )........thanks steve and suzy...michele and sandy for working on the families in trauma fund ( more on that later) or see micheles comments from yesterday........SCOTT AND AMY .....YOUR INCREDIBLE ( they sent me a signed jack johnson acoustic guitar) (you know it's hard to eat with a lump in my throat).....STEWART & KENT MY OTHER BROTHERS.....LOVE YOU GUYS ....ALL MY LUCY GALS......SO HAPPY YOU ARE IN MY WORLD......I AM THE LUCKIEST MAN ALIVE...........TO MY FAMILY THANKS FOR ALL THE SUPPORT...SUE ---CASEY AND CHRIS......YOU GUYS ,......HAVE BEEN AMAZING......to all my blogettes .....your comments keep me moving foward.....to my friends, aunts ,uncles,cousins and teammates......cannot wait to see you this summer...........nieces and nephews uncle tom will be as good as new to play with you again.......to mike and dom.....two of the greatest brothers in the world.....rosemary,barbara,laura,felicia and brooklyn barb ...........you are like my sisters...and i love you so much.........ok no more mushy stuff.....gotta go eat some more...i will leave you with this on this beautiful sunny sunday..." you are what you have learned from the past,what you experience today, and what you dream for tomorrow."....( found this saying on a place matte in a resturant in woodstock).....sloane kettering here i come.....( 68th and york ave ) one block fro 1st ave....for all those who asked......in lew of flowers send smiles.........tom "camel-boy" cheffo.....cell ..516-946-1134 will have it on in hospital..i can use it there) starting friday i should be able to talk.......

CANCER FREE ...DAY THREE

thanks for all the calls and well wishes.......i love you all............................................well we had exactly 5 minutes to rejoice in the doctors office before we rolled up our sleeves and figured out a way to handle the next step.....THE NEO-BLADDER...... dr russo will remove my old bladder on wed the 12th and rebuilt my new one in about 4-6 hours....recovery room the rest of the day wednesday and moved into my own room on thursday (sues working with michele and steve on getting me a private room) more on that later......they want me to get up and walk a little the next day........man no rest for the weary.....about 10 days in the hospital...and 2 months recovery.......thats two freaking months..i will go stir crazy....but will be writing about it daily.......celebrated by going to another concert tonight..........bob weirs band rat dog( grateful dead fame) for my older cousins and aunts and uncles,,,heee ...heeeee...i went with casey saw some good friends and we smiled alot..........any way during THE SONG NEW SPEEDWAY BOOGIE the verse ends with.... "ONE WAY OR ANOTHER THIS DARKNESS GOT TO GIVE'" well my friends phase 1 is done..........on to phase 2...................tom

CANCER FREE

well had a good day today ( but then again any day above ground is a good day..........)looks like we killed the bastard....there is no visable sign of cancer in my body........ya....whoooooooooooo..... i will repeat that to all of you in the back....THERE IS NO VISABLE SIGN OF CANCER IN MY BODY............I still need to remove and replace the bladder and that was a trip leaning about my recovery and surgery...( i will give up to the minute reports from the hospital)......using ghost writers and trying to go live myself...i will go into more detail about the surgery soon....... we need to remove the bladder due to the high reocurrence rate and the where the tumor was located......but man it feels good to know it is out of my body...........always used to joke and say "the big c will not get me" well it did get me .......but it can't kill me...........whats that saying ...what doesn't kill you ,,,,makes you stronger........i will be faster...stronger...happier...and dang it if i am not gonna keep on blogging................thanks to my doctors i'm gonna live to play some more....dance some more..pick and grin some more......laugh some more..cry some more ( and those who know me know that is quite often) but most of all see all of you some more............rock on people (rachel at work hates when i say people) but hey i can say what i want i got cancer...opps....can't say that any ....oh well it was good while it lasted ( getting away with saying stuff)....heheheheehhe........heee...haw...........tommy "cancer free" cheffo.............

NEWS ON MY OPERATION

when the monkey smiles ....all is good
turns out a good friend of mine knew someone who had the exact same surgery as i am going to have and is in his 18th week of recovery...well i gave my new pal a call and he was so helpful.......he said it is painless and a little uncomfortable......he has trained his new neo-bladder to work pretty good.....he did have a blood infection but that could happen during any surgery........he sounded strong and optimistic and made me want to get started right away.......one step closer to free.....need to remove this chain called cancer from around my neck....can't wait to say ....i'm a survivor ( and not from the tv show) ..loved that curb episode.......anywho....all is good ..even got to throw the SOFTBALL around sunday with some of the greatest bunch of guys.."THE RAIDERS' ...the softball team i am on ..they are holding my spot for me when i am healthy......."once a raider always a raider"......i pitched batting pratice until denis almost took my head off with a line drive......then i figured that was enough........long may you run...........................tom ...thanks cousin maryann...your a pisser..love to all

BLOG WORLD

ok i lied about the award....but who knows........................................................... right after i was told about the big "C" i had this idea of creating of a web site that friends and family would be able to check on for updates and progress......my good friend and neighbor rob ( and heck of a piano player) told me about the "BLOG" concept...and the rest is history.....never in my wildest dreams did i think it would evolve into what it has.....i honestly do not know where i would have been if not for being able to write it down at the end of the day and share it with all of you......so much has come out of this site.....it has been a light to me in the darkest of hours....a silent friend who takes what i have to say and share it with the world.......it is my intention to continue to blog from the bedside at slone kettering hospital.......5th floor.......i will own that floor in a few days......asked casey to sneak my guitar in .....her reaction ...daddy gotta think of the other patients ( gotta love her)......i said ok ...maybe i will bring my harmonica ...( just learning how to play it) that should keep them awake....hehehehe...most importantly chris is gonna sneak in a few beers....or maybe wine to celebrate easter and passover....( sure hope the big guy passes over me).......so to all that read my words everyday..thank-you....to all that live life to the fullest everyday....keep on keeping on........lots of stories to tell still....i plan on blogging long after this chapter in my life is finished ........... long after the stitches heal in my new bladder ....long after they kick my ass out of the hospital into your arms........the arms of life............................